I was thinking a lot about, us…
You know what I felt and that I really wanted to be with you. Since I met you I knew that you are someone special.
There is one thing that was happening since we met. Strange feeling that you were running from me just after I started to show you that I wanted you and needed your attention. Sometimes I felt like a toy that was played for a moment and then thrown away to a corner.
You said to me that I am scared to be alone. Yes I don’t want to be alone, but loneliness doesn’t scares me honestly.
I don’t know if you noticed that you more often payed attention to people, friends, other things, especially when I wanted to talk with you. I don’t know the real reason that you used to disappear when I needed you. I was thinking a lot about it. Maybe I am a problem, maybe something else… that’s the question I will never know an answer.
Don’t think please that I have any regrets. In fact I think it was one of the most beautiful feelings, emotions and moments that happened to me.
I was scared to even think that I will never see you, touch you, kiss you, walk with you, play you my music and wake up in the morning by your side and many other simple things that made my life like I would stand under the rainbow.
I really hope one day you gonna understand what I was talking about when you will find this special person. The person that will be one and only and the most important, more then friends, more then things, more then everything and you will never disappear from his live, and he will be only yours. Your best friend, your lover, your precious.
I wish I could take a colors from a rainbow and place them into your heart. So you would remember what beautiful feels like and know there is hope in the dark.
I was thinking how would it be to meet you again soon. I was hoping you would really want me. Unfortunately I know that I am not this person to you.
Things will hurt, but remember miracles happens on the sky. Keep walking through a storm, your rainbow is waiting for you on the other side. One day you will find it, I will find it too!
This time is my time to disappear once for all.
Even tho this is my last message to you I don’t feel sad or disappointed. I am really happy that I meet you like I was happy when we took this photo. I will always keep you in my memories, my heart and remember you.
Good bye butterfly and remember your wings already exist, all you have to do is fly 🦋
My last song for you: